A whole new year ....

One of my many New Year's resolutions, is to not forget about my blog.  Not because my life is *oh so important* to be sharing with you ;) but because I need to force myself to write down the little things so I remember them as time is slipping away rapidly.

My little nuttypoo is 1 week away from 5 months old! Can you believe it!? I simply cannot.  He's just the most awesome and I shall share some holiday pictures soon. Promise. (new years promise! those are real!)

So the other day we rang in 2012. How old does that make me feel? 12 years since the millennium! And it's not like I don't even remember 2000 -- I was almost out of high school already at that point.  Feeling old.

I hate New Years Eve.  Did you know that about me? I have since I was much younger.  (Not like super kid little because then it was fun -- you get to stay up till midnight and eat junk food!)  But at least since I was a teenager, I have hated New Years Eve.  First off, I am not now, nor I have ever been a big fan of "change".  I'm just not good at it.  I find comfort in the way things are and get anxiety about change -- really rather it's good or bad change, I just get major anxiety with it.  And changing into a whole new year, well that's a lot of unknown change. The worst kind.  Then there's all the expectations that come along with the New Year.  There's expectations to have "super fun and cool plans" on New Years Eve, there's expectations for the big moment at midnight, and there's expectations for the new year ahead.  It all gives me a lot of anxiety.  For many years (call me a dork if you must) I have been craving for the New Years when I had the perfect excuse to curl up on the couch and do nothing on New Years Eve. No anxiety, no expectations.  But there is never a good excuse to do that without feeling like a dork.  Until you have kids.  Then it is *totally* acceptable (esp. in my thwarted mind) to stay home on the couch while your babe sleeps peacefully.  So I am actually extremely happy to say that this year, I *finally* got the New Years Eve I have been secretly craaaaving for the last oh 14 years or so ... I snuggled on the couch with my husband and watched a movie while our baby boy slept peacefully away, rang in the New Year's with a kiss (and only a hint of new year expectation anxiety-- I mean this very well could have been the last New Year we ever have if the Mayans are to believed ... ) and was cuddled up warm in my bed by 1am. 

Finally, perfection.  Couldn't ask for anything more. :)

Happy 2012 friends! Hope it found you happy and healthy and stays that way all the way through ....