Well. We've decided its time to share this with the rest of the world. BABY MORAN IS ON HIS/HER WAY!!! Yay!! Scott and I can't wait! Maizy, on the other hand, eehhhh... we're not too sure yet. Pretty sure we did an awesome job of raising our dog as a human so we're pretty sure she's about to experience some sibling rivalry. But the good news is, we're already raising a human, so you know. how hard can an actual one be ;)
No for seriousness. This summer Scott and I will spend our 4th year of marriage (June 9th), our 6th year together (July 9th), and welcome our first baby (August 7th!!). How quickly time does fly my friends! It was only 7 years ago that I was partying my way through Europe planning to move back out there as soon as college was over to, I don't know, stalk Prince William until he agreed to marry and support me? I'm not sure. But times, they have changed. And I, for one, could not be happier on where life has led me. The last ten years of my life I have lived in Chicago, New York City, and London, traveled over both oceans to many beautiful and exotic locations, had a buttload (highly technical terms coming here) of traumatizing and amazing experiences, fell in love with my soulmate, bought property in a major city, acted in over 30 films projects, became momma to the cutest miniature golden doodle in the world, and visited Disney World, Disneyland, and Disneyland Paris! It may not be success to everyone, but it is to me. There was just one thing missing. And now, as I inch closer and closer to ... <thirty> ... it is time to venture into my next dream. Being a mommy.
It's a tough decision to come upon. Not because I didn't think I wanted to be a mother or because I didn't think I could "handle" the stress of raising a child. I've known since I was a wee one that I wanted to grow up, marry Scott (oh yeah true story), and have lots of cute little babies. But it was a hard decision, nonetheless, because I always knew that when it was time for me to become a momma, that's what I wanted to be. Not a momma who is throwing up her food post pregnancy because I have to be smaller at that audition or not getting to put my baby to sleep at night because I have rehearsal or not being able to take my family on vacations because I have to "keep that month open in case maybe possibly I got cast in that one show that's auditioning every young actress around next month". Therein is where the hard decision lies. I, by no means, want acting to be over forever in my life. But for me, being a full time mother is another dream I have. And acting isn't like "going back to the office" after the baby. It has other demands that can take quite an emotional toll on your well being and that is something that I don't want to sacrifice for my baby, at least not when he/she's a baby. I want to enjoy motherhood. I want to be able to spend as much time as we can monetarily afford with my children. Because (I know I'm not a mom yet, but I am too well aware of this), babies grow up. FAST. And if there's anything I can do to cherish that time with them, I want to do it. There will always be time later to stretch those acting muscles. And, let's be honest here for a moment, I've been auditioning professionally since I was twelve years old. I'm exhausted.
So now, we move on to mommyhood! (Don't worry my dearest progressive women friends, I have many wonderful ideas once my kids get school-aged on ways to continue in my acting passion and be home to give me kids a snack-- I promise!) But for right this moment, I am going to enjoy being pregnant and anticipate my little one!!
For Christmas this year, I got a pregnancy journal from my future son or daughter (already the good shopper! Maybe it's a girl?). But being the procrastinator I am, I have not filled much in past the "my doctor is" section. Soooo I shall use this blog to keep up with my pregnancy. Sadly I'm a child of the future, not the past, and I'm a much faster typer than writer. I will be sharing all the joys (whats the sex, is it kicking, i bought a crib!) and the not so joys (how in God's name am i STILL sick) that I get to experience along the way! If you're interested, read away. If you're not, stop reading :). *I mean seriously what is with people reading other people's blogs just to judge them, if you dont like what you're reading, why are you wasting your time.* But beware, I am a couple weeks behind (I admitted I was a procrastinator, admitting is the first step), so there may be a lot at once. :)
But please join me as Scott and I navigate our way through birthing and raising our baby .... Today, I'm 14 weeks and 4 days pregnant. Buckle up kids, its gonna be a bumpy ride ....
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